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Princess Paradox
02 December 2016 @ 09:25 pm
Love this song/lyric/words/truth:


coz i luv you

coz I luv you
Current Location: the Whole Wide World
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: Slade--Coz i luv you
Princess Paradox
01 December 2016 @ 09:46 pm
This is a message for --both-- R.B. and J/J.R.M./E.L./N.B./L./R----E.

: Stop trying to impress me. Impress yourself.
"You want a piece of me??!" The answer is NO.

I am my own best friend/soul mate.
Try to think of yourself as a whole person. I think you'll find that you are, and indeed you have been right from the start. "Own it."

You did not create me. Maybe the messages you sent --slyly-- inspired me, but you did not influence me. I either accepted --or rejected-- what you threw at me. I am a self-created/creating/creative individual. "Understand".


Start paying attention to your own ideas/creativity/talent, and STOP NEEDING VALIDATION from me/every one else.
The coolest people will like/love/approve of you if you earn their respect, not their devotion.


The King of this and that and the other--you don't need every one to like you! You don't need every one to think of you all the time! You don't need to be immortal while still alive. You don't need to hide in plain sight.
Don't abuse yourself in order to try to get pity. Pity is not love.
and do not try to create a myth of yourself/your life. Why in the name of fuckin 'ell would you want that?
I understand that the people who should have loved you when you were young were absent or abusive; I understand that you are an adult and must take responsibility for your own life now.
You have free will--USE IT, DOLL.

You have hurt people with your obtuseness. You are --so far-- an idiot savant.
You can't --no matter what people do or say or how they accidentally let you down-- say certain shit about them. What I mean is when you talked about your ex-wife, you should have been respectful and not shared certain things. Basically, you are a fuckin asshole sometimes. Grow the fuck up.
You're not a fucking rock star--she is.
Were you chanelling Arthur Miller? Have you heard of Arthur Miller?
Yeah, go back to uni, you jackass. Every one will then think you're a proper intellectual. christ, gimme a break.
You talk too much for your own good.

If the above has been harsh, well, sometimes it has to be that way. "That is all." Oscar Wilde said that --incase you didn't know.--

from B.L./N.S./N.L.L./N--T/N./P.P./L.N.N.
mood: rejuvenatedrejuvenated
Princess Paradox
It's 6:17 p.m. in Winnipeg Manitoba Canada

and I literally cannot remember the last time I saw the sun.

what in the name of hell does that mean??
mood: infuriatedinfuriated
music: voices of friends & enemies
Princess Paradox
01 December 2016 @ 06:13 pm

mood: indescribableindescribable
music: Lost Boys
Princess Paradox
01 December 2016 @ 06:49 am
oh this shit... I am --SO-- sick of this trilogy denouement fucking shit

so...a "friend" told me some amount of time ago (lost the plot) that "it's not about you" and so I believed but then later thought it was merely meant to get a steeplefinger reaction

but then,,,I dunno--this fucking day. it's ...I want to/don't want to be absolutely certain that this shit is real and happening to me and the extent of it and ALL the flipping details and want to stop slightly suspecting me of "being schizophrenic"



"can't escape from the feeling"

and so I will just wait to see whether anyone in my/our future can grant me the fucking privilege of TELLING ME WHO THE HELL I AM!!!

Current Location: never u mind. away.
mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
music: wind howlz softly
Princess Paradox
01 December 2016 @ 06:14 am
so...I shared an intense experience earlier today. this beautiful woman I know (acquaintance) had to be sexually rehabilitated by her longlost boyfriend. she had been sexually abused as a child and teenager, and her current experience of sex was extremely fragmented, painful, traumatic, detached, inevitably violent.
so that was an 'interesting' section of my life/my bed is all undone and my heart is broken in half and served up on a plate like john the baptist and it's hard to trust and want to but can't quite make it

and I feel like I don't want to make it after all
it was me with you F, that's how we got through Ibelieve. cause men had hurt us, in different ways so women can be trusted.
some men are ok, would never hurt us, but women are so very rarely dependable in a motherly kind of way

you tried so hard to save that woman who watched you dyin every day but failed to see she was the parent and you were the child

again-- I get that in a way. verbally/emotionally she was/is clocked off and he is only just startin to try. I am 35 years old and they will be dead soon. as Ityped that I imagined you laughing with a little bit of mirth

and then we both wondered if we could trust each other

and the answer, we both know, is YES!!!
*dances at the bronze*

Current Location: bronze. laughs.
mood: dirtydirty
music: some shit at the bronze!!
Princess Paradox
30 November 2016 @ 11:22 am
ok this is for my special friends:

"I'm so proud of the potential you so in me. development."

michael. GARY. oldman. SCOTT.


en francais.
pink pantherd.

toni collette.
Current Location: the internet.
mood: apatheticapathetic
music: psychedelic furs
Princess Paradox
29 November 2016 @ 11:46 pm
so those fuckin twilight "books" fucking suck and that lady's husband needed her $$$ but still though, let's not feel guilty for calling it like it is: there's an apple on the cover.

also--it's NOT literature.

do not discuss modern culture in public. or private, for that matter.
neither with yourselves or your mothers or their sisters or her brothers' sisters KITTENS??!. ...? .
mood: gigglygiggly
music: buffy singing
Princess Paradox
29 November 2016 @ 11:24 pm
jez said one day...*eye roll type thing* and then: "Only a quiet mind will win the fight."
and I agree. ...and so does David Tyrel, incase you wanted to not know. *adjusts tie whilst looking gorgeous and humble and wry*
Current Location: nowhere.com
mood: awakeawake
music: michael sheen--poetry
Princess Paradox
fait accompli.
:) !
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: buble, michael
Princess Paradox
29 November 2016 @ 10:25 pm
one word: Goethe.
Current Location: winnipeg. ca. (canada)
mood: deviousdevious
music: buffy. last ep.
Princess Paradox
29 November 2016 @ 09:11 pm
as I cannot be certain of much these days, if you would like to read my articles, please send me a message to apply for membership to this, my journalist journal.

leave a comment and perhaps I shall allow you to read copyrighted material written by me, and solely me.
Current Location: at my desk
mood: energeticenergetic
music: silence