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Princess Paradox
13 August 2013 @ 01:18 am
I love it when you read something in fiction and think 'That's exactly how I feel, I just never articulated it that way.' Last summer was emotionally difficult and incredibly stressful. But I happened to read a short story by F. Scott Fitzgerald at the time when I had overcome certain challenges and I was feeling really relieved and strong and proud of myself. This summer has been even more stressful than last year, and disappointing and confusing. But I've gotten through this too, and I know I'll get through the next (inevitable) challenge that life throws at me. I had some harsh days recently when I felt like every thing was falling apart and I couldn't handle it. But there was still a fundamental faith in myself even while I was sobbing.

Beautiful words of a flapper from Fitzgerald's The Offshore Pirate:
And then when I'd begun to feel that after all life was scarcely worth living I found something, I found something! Courage--just that; courage as a rule of life, and something to cling to always. I began to build up this enormous faith in myself. ...All sorts of courage--the liking what you like always; the utter disregard for other people's opinions--just to live as I liked and die in my own way. And courage to me meant ploughing through that dull gray mist that comes down on life--not only overriding people and circumstances but overriding the bleakness of living. A sort of insistence on the value of life and the worth of transient things.
My courage is faith--faith in the eternal resilience of me--that joy'll come back, and hope and spontaneity.
mood: calmcalm
music: Buffy the Vampire Slayer-Fear Itself
Princess Paradox
13 January 2016 @ 11:02 pm
I can't believe Bowie's dead. He was extraordinary, and...well there is so much that could be said about why he was amazing but I just don't have the words.
I adored adore him in that special way you can only love an artist.
I've been listening to different albums and compilations the past few days; it's been bittersweet but wonderful. This might sound trite but it's true: we still have his music (and acting) to enjoy, so he's not truly gone. ...I still have the ticket from his 2004 show. It was one of he best nights of my life, and it's over but I've still got the memory of it.
Long live David Bowie.

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mood: touchedtouched
music: David Bowie--Heroes
Princess Paradox
06 February 2009 @ 07:33 pm
( There's probably one out of a million chances that you ever look at my journal...I don't know if you ever remember me. But if you happen to see this, I'm sure you must know I'm referring to you. Anyway even if it's not likely that you'll read this...well I guess whatever. It's worth it anyway.)

Last night I was getting ready to go to bed and I was looking around in my ipod-I wanted something nice and soothing to put me to sleep. I downloaded Melon Collie and the Infinite Sadness a while ago. I used to love that album,I listened to it a lot when I was in high school. But somehow I lost both the cds and I haven't listened to it since then. So I'd forgotten most of the songs. When I saw the title Farewell and Goodnight I didn't remember the music at all but I thought--oh that's just what I wanted. And when I listened to it, the song was so lovely and it made me think of you. I wondered how you are, if you're happy. ...I think what I want to say is simple. I wish we could talk again sometimes, that's all. In this show I love called Hex, one of the characters asks a girl if she wants to go for a drink and she looks at him like she's thinking-what the hell? and says "Why??" And he says "I thought we had a laugh the other day." That's basically what I'm saying. I know it was ages ago but I thought we had a laugh. I liked talking with you. We don't have everything in common but we have some in common. Regardless, I think we had a connection. Things were strange at the end. But I don't really care about that. I still think I knew you, even if only somewhat. And I would like to know you again. So if you read this, add me to msn. Or if you have a journal, add me and I'll add you back. Did that sound demanding?? I didn't mean it that way ofcourse. It would be nice to talk to you sometimes that's all.

But if you don't fancy reconnecting I understand. So if that's the case I'll just say Farewell and Goodbye.
music: Smashing Pumpkins-Farewell and Goodnight
Princess Paradox
18 September 2008 @ 06:49 pm

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